It’s a funny thing tarot cards. I mean, I’m not a believer in the normal sense, I simply find them fascinating and occasionally eerily right on the money. Here are my cards from today. They’re spot on.
What’s at Hand: Ace of Swords (reversed)
Things are out of balance. Practice patience and perseverance. This is the time for solo work. In your dealings with others, don’t distort the facts.
Past Influences: King of Pentacles (reversed)
You are being extremely sensitive now, more vulnerable to the suggestions of others. Stop it! Fear of competition and growth will only delay desired outcomes. Act now to meet your goals. Tell you partners your objectives and feelings. Don’t be afraid of rejection.
Ponder This: XX Judgement (reversed)
Your desire to escape is strong. Keep your ears open and your mouth closed. Listen. Read all the fine print. Self-esteem is low and needs a boost. Act now without fear.
What to do: Queen of Swords (upright)
Let others suffer the consequences of their actions. Be your own person and you won’t get burned.
in life when things don’t happen the way we wish. A person can wish and wish, but does that make it better or worse? Wishing brings hope, but then the question is whether or not that hope is false. I don’t know. I have to hope. It’s what I have and although some would call it naive, I am optimistic to a fault. One month ago, I would have never seen myself here. This wasn’t how this year was supposed to happen. How do I start again? Something has been lost, and it really hasn’t it me fully until now. There are good days and bad days and I have begun to heal, but then something comes along and I feel as though I’ve been sucker punched. There are positive things that have come out of this. I am proud of myself; I’ve met new people, had new experiences, become more confident, and I am closer to my friends. I at least have that.
You had promised to not hurt me this way again, although I understand why this has to happen. But the betrayal I feel doesn’t come from that, it comes from being ignored. It feels like rejection. It feels like I’ve done something wrong. A simple “hello” would do. I’m a simple girl when it comes down to it. Time will heal wounds I am told. Will time make you see? I hope that this is not “suffering for suffering’s sake”, but to truly do what you have said. And I know it’s all for the best, but it doesn’t change how I still feel. I’ve never missed anyone this way. People keep telling me that you miss me, but it sure doesn’t feel that way. I feel what they say is true, but then, how much is merely for comfort? Truth or imagined? I don’t want to over-analyze. No matter what, I know that this isn’t over; far from it, whether it goes the way that I wish or not. I guess I didn’t think it would be like this. I have questions that I want to be answered. I think so much about other people, that what this time has taught me is that I need to start thinking more about myself. So, I believe I have a right sometime in the near future to have those questions answered. It’s only fair.